day 6: conflict
we argued last night and it made me feel hurt. you felt hurt by me also and said words that stung deeper than you knew…you called me disrespectful. you had planned a “date” for us to go to your work for a guitar clinic and i jokingly said “thats not a date, that’s your thing!” and it hurt your feelings, making you feel that i am never satisfied by you. later when we got into a conversation about it, i interrupted you and got riled up and you felt unsafe by that.
i’ve been studying respect and i’m realizing where i’m falling short. but i’m not giving up. i can’t. i know that pivotal growth is taking place right now and i know i need to change. i hope you never call me disrespectful again because i’m not that woman. or maybe i am. but i certainly don’t want to be.
LORD change me!QUICK!! seriously…ugh. i don’t like the ME in your eyes….i wouldn’t have married her.
ok, so tonight i will continue my intentional acts of love. we have marriage counseling tonight, then we are going to some friend’s of our’s house to worship and hang out.